no more Negativity .

since i knew it was too late to be regret, sorry or upset... I'm fully prepared to let him go.


though i said this before back few months ago, i really thought i made it until i knew that he got a 'someone' now.


I'm reluctant at first and hardly could accept it. 


i felt suffocated and hardly could breath as though as i got an asthma attack.


i was about to do any nonsense again and take it seriously this time.


but then... some replies from my cousin made a change; just like a Miracle!


it may sounds lame and not making sense though.


but her comments had something hidden that could only be seen by me.


besides her, i got my buddy act as a backup to support me whenever i need em'.


after that, the awful feelings just vanished.


what even surprise me was i never even shed a tear even though the news hurt me deeply as though my heart had been crush not into pieces but to dust.


finally i realized that whats most important in a relationship are Trust, Loyalty and Understanding.


i don't have the above 3 good qualities as a gf that's why it led to a bad relationship between me and him.


acting desperate, needy and lost is not the original me and its so-not-Cool.


making my friends and family members worry isn't what i want too.


ever heard of a famous quotation; "if you love him/her, let em' go..." ?


yeah. that's what I'm doing now. :')


I'm not afraid to admit that i still have the feelings, but I'm trying to ease it as time past.


to anyone i had offended before, a brief apology from me for being rude and doesn't think twice before making a decision and also being silly.


i appreciate what i had before and i would treasure it as well.


but there's something i wish it wouldn't repeat in my life again; my nasty behaviour. 


so since i already realize what is right and what is wrong, I'm ready to stand on my feet and move on with my life again.


maybe its true that it's best to stay single.


I'm still a teenager, there's much more to learn in the future. 

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

Anyway, best wishes to the happy couple . God bless ♥