An Awful Past; A New Beginning

Its been months since i last visited my blog.

A lot of things happened for the passed 4 months.

I worked, met new friends, got a crush, and got a broken heart again.

This is what we called, Life Cycle though.

Working was quite fun actually..

I manage to gain some experiences and could also be more independent too.

I still remembered, when i were working for a end year grand sale held upstairs of a mall, I saw him.

He joined a group;more like a music band. They were having performance at downstairs.

I actually had my lunch alone but some of my colleagues felt sorry seeing me eating all by myself.

So they joined me.

Just when I'm about to finish my lunch, I saw my friend, then i saw him.

I stop eating, i left, leaving my colleagues with puzzled look.

I by passed him. We gaze at each other for a sec.

I ran to the toilet and cry my heart out.

My eyes were swollen and after lunch break my friends tried to coax me..

Well, that's a little too over though.

I sneak out and went downstairs to watch the performance.

Its obvious his trying to avoid me when I'm there.

I saw his "someone" and I'm not surprise to it.

She's beyond my expectation. Thought she's some pretty and cutelooking girl.

But she's NOT. :) haha.

She's just an ordinary girl with straight long hair which you can find anywhere at town.

Well, everything was back to normal after that..

I got a crush on someone i knew at work actually.

But later on i found out his more into my friend, so i gave up.

Before CNY, I went to Times Square with some friends to get some new stuffs.

I like the decorations there.

Nice right? :)

Nothing much about New Year celebration, just some gatherings and outings with friends.

Some sad things happened too during CNY.

A friend of mine, Crystal, was going to Australia permanently.

I went to her house first.. She helped me took a pic of my other friends... :))

Ignore me-,- i looked like a tortoise=w=

After that i went to Kim's house and we made a card for her.

We had steamboat nearby and its a huge gathering... We enjoyed it a lot too :)

When we showed Crystal the card, it almost made her cry!

We'll miss you a lot, Crys :')

Well we had Sakae Sushi for lunch.

I were so hungry that i grab almost everything i saw on the sushi rounding thingy.

So, that's all for the things that happened few months back.

Will re-update my blog sometimes.

Till then ***

no more Negativity .

since i knew it was too late to be regret, sorry or upset... I'm fully prepared to let him go.


though i said this before back few months ago, i really thought i made it until i knew that he got a 'someone' now.


I'm reluctant at first and hardly could accept it. 


i felt suffocated and hardly could breath as though as i got an asthma attack.


i was about to do any nonsense again and take it seriously this time.


but then... some replies from my cousin made a change; just like a Miracle!


it may sounds lame and not making sense though.


but her comments had something hidden that could only be seen by me.


besides her, i got my buddy act as a backup to support me whenever i need em'.


after that, the awful feelings just vanished.


what even surprise me was i never even shed a tear even though the news hurt me deeply as though my heart had been crush not into pieces but to dust.


finally i realized that whats most important in a relationship are Trust, Loyalty and Understanding.


i don't have the above 3 good qualities as a gf that's why it led to a bad relationship between me and him.


acting desperate, needy and lost is not the original me and its so-not-Cool.


making my friends and family members worry isn't what i want too.


ever heard of a famous quotation; "if you love him/her, let em' go..." ?


yeah. that's what I'm doing now. :')


I'm not afraid to admit that i still have the feelings, but I'm trying to ease it as time past.


to anyone i had offended before, a brief apology from me for being rude and doesn't think twice before making a decision and also being silly.


i appreciate what i had before and i would treasure it as well.


but there's something i wish it wouldn't repeat in my life again; my nasty behaviour. 


so since i already realize what is right and what is wrong, I'm ready to stand on my feet and move on with my life again.


maybe its true that it's best to stay single.


I'm still a teenager, there's much more to learn in the future. 

When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

Anyway, best wishes to the happy couple . God bless ♥

2pm drugs~

Recently addicted to this korean boy band called 2pm after watching their show.


My favorite among the 6 of them are Wooyoung, Nichkhun & Junho ♥


Though they're not on the top list of kpop singers but they're effin hot :)) 

I'm gonna buy their album after i get my first salary ! :3

是幸福吗？♥

不確定就別親吻

感情很容易毀了一個人

一個人若不夠狠

愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

你留下來的垃圾

我一天一天總會丟完的

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恆在你的身上先發生

#你還是要幸福

你千萬不要再招惹別人哭

所有錯誤從我這裏落幕

別跟著我 銘心 刻骨

*你還是要幸福

我才能確定我還得很清楚

確定自己再也不會佔據

你的篇幅

明天 開始 這一切都結束

還我鑰匙的備份

我覺得再見可以很單純

我甚至真心真意的祝福

永恆在你的身上先發生

你如果很幸福

半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆

因為你的悲喜已經有了

容身之處 我也 能有

最純粹的孤獨

最孤獨 的孤獨

Thanks :')

Thanks to you, I learn from my mistakes...
Thanks to you, I realized that i should do better next time.
Thanks to you, I have became more matured.
Thanks to you, I could finally let it go ♥